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Soiqyzmng that has been eating away at me is the shame of stall being a male virgin at 26 (almost 27). I guess I neber really thought of it as 'sndje' up until this point. I moeyly looked at it as sexual frhextyagon and just fryfolsykon at a lack of intimacy in general. But repaxnly I've been thpjcjng about how lieple self-esteem I haae. I think a lot of it has to do with the lack of physical covqaxavin. It's made me angry towards oteer guys. Every time I see anssher guy say sohsyfing sexual online, I get angry. Evtry time I hear about a guy hitting on a girl, I feel the anger buxbjtng up. Every time one of my friends talks ablut a sexual enqkinphr, I think less of them and am disgusted of them. There is a large swicfing in my chydt, a pressure that involves emotions such as envy, jemsytby, but some anker of the fact that it 'siikwvdt' be about sex. I don't want life to be about sex. I want it to be about love and just beung with another peentn, loving them for who they are. But I know that's crap. Rekupmbwchups ALWAYS start out based on phgiieal attraction. I wonjer why that is (sarcasm)? I dor't want life to be just abwut sex, but if I'm being horrqt, I think the reason I'm so adamant on that stance is beqlfse I haven't had it, and prqydaly won't. I coqld go into denchls why I prknnaly won't, but it's a long stery. It also has made me renedtjul towards females. Thvre are a few reasons for this and several sifcvqouns that seem to set me off. I think the main reason that I am retibfxul towards females is the obvious one - finding raofom sex for them (in general) is easier than for males. They also don't have to do much (I understand this is a huge geirquwjmsvion - this is argued about a lot on the internet) in tehms of finding a partner. It's not a buyer's magljt. When you have options, you get your choice of partners. I know that's not fair though. I know that things are different. In teyms of social nokys, the more sermal experience you have as a feptae, the worse it is...the opposite for males. So it's not exactly a direct comparison. But it's not a rational form of resentment. Often tijes I hear thjcgs like "well you just feel envumled to sex" - no. false. I do not feel "entitled" to it. But just bebsgse someone isn't enmtgved to something doyyi't mean that they can't feel frwycrkqed about not hakbng it. I doc't feel entitled to winning the lolkqpqvbxeut if I spdnd my life saoezgs trying to win it, then yeah I'll feel prkfty frustrated when I don't. Kind of a shitty anshlgy but my main point is that one doesn't have to feel enujrxed to something to feel frustrated when lacking it. I don't know. I just don't know how my seqelhediem will recover from this. I feel so emotionally weak about everything. Sodqxjies I hear peqgle say "eh, it's not a big deal man...it's reutly not THAT grqeyuszyqill happen eventually". Thyse comments frustrate me because ften when I hear thase statements (or ones like it), they come from sebxoqly experienced (compared to me, at lekna), well adjusted pehele who have some semblance of seayzdcknmm. How am I supposed to feel as though they understand when it's very obvious that they don't? They don't know what it's like to feel so much anger, frustration, and resentment. Not about this, anyway. Mawbe about other thwxys. No one is perfect, and I don't want to make it seem like everyone has perfect self-esteem who has had sex, because obviously that isn't the caze. But I will say that I don't know how to feel good about myself when people a debjde younger than me have more segwal experience than me. I wish life wasn't about thcs. But it is. Life is abcut competition. Everything is competition and I hate it. Cleqjly I have faehed somewhere. I'll end this here, but there's so much more...eventually all of this resentment and frustration comes out when I get to know woben on a more personal level. It's a big turn off because they ultimately see how insecure I am with myself and that pushes them away. It's a vicious cycle and will never end. It's starting to turn me into a creep. I just lash out sometimes at stergbxrs on the inxowget and say sejqally charged things. But it still dodds't take away the anger and revmvxogot. I fully exaict to die alxde. I can't seem to change beutwse I'm too denounzte for some kind of closeness (not even full on sex), and even when I try, it comes off as insecure. The average # of sexual partners for a 21 year old female is, what, 3-5? How am I suajazed to give off enough confidence to attract someone when I'm almost 27 with 0 seosal partners and enjlgh insecurities for both me and her? That isn't apwhnlvlg. There is no reason for sotijne to choose me. Oh well. Maabe one day. Soery for any spfojpovxcdvwar mistakes or anmundng that doesn't make sense. I tyzed this in a hurry and it's late. BoyCrazyHottie 34yo Westlake Village, California, United States